444.
It’s not the cruelty that hurts, but the contrast. Holding my hand, then wrenching yours out of my grasp; giving your lips to me, then gluing them shut; looking at me like somebody who finally understood me, as if you actually liked what you saw, and then turning your face in the opposite direction. How is this fair?
443.
I’m starting to wonder if perhaps adult relationships are more effort than they’re worth.
442.
I have gotten my hopes so high about you over these past few weeks even though I’ve been trying so so hard not to. But I know you’d make a great husband. And I know that I probably don’t deserve that. But seeing you talk to another girl combined with me feeling so alone on the opposite side of the room full to bursting with people has left me feeling terrible.
441.
I just need somebody to love.
440.
Each second that passes is how much he’s worth to you and how much I’m not.
439.
This isn’t a letter for anyone in particular, this is just a rant. Sort of. Basically, realising I used to be such a slut does not raise my already low self esteem. On the contrary. What will a guy ever like me for, now? I’m still a virgin, but one day that’s going to go because I’m going to get drunk, and unhappy, and it’ll all just blow up in one night. Betcha. Fuck everything, no wonder I’m such a failure.
438.
You’re changing your life for her. Making new friends, faking smiles, leaving your past behind, if you’d stayed with me you could keep everything. I know you love her, but knowing it is different from seeing it. Seeing you change, seeing you do all these things for her.I only asked you to try for me. But you’re not happy with your life, so it’s best for you to try for her, because she’s bright shinny and new, she’ll bring you your new life. I hope you’re happy in it. I hope you come back though
437.
I wish I could say it to your face… ‘cos I realized today, that I’m falling in love with you…
436.
I love hugs from him.
435.
That’s right. We do make a good team. We’d make a good couple too you know…
